Happy Birthday Steve...

What's on today?? oh ya..... 19 years ago in Elizabeth Hospital in Kota Kinabalu,Sabah, same day, don't know what time, don't know by gift or by accident, a baby was born...... named ONG CHE MENG!! and guess what?? That's me!! ^^

For the day like this, people usually will be receiving lots of presents or even it is only one, you're still receiving present. For the day like this, people usually will be having dinner with parents, friends, love one, relatives, etc. For the day like this, people are usually happy. As for me, belief it or not, none of this 3 basic things is happening to me. Oh well, there is 3 times I'm actually happy on my birthday. The rest of the 16 times? Ha ha ha... sigh.,

I remember(actually I don't want to remember) last time, I was at home, wondering if my family will celebrate my birthday for me, and so I wait see if there is a suprising one. I wait and wait and till end of the day, nothing happen, I was like so invisible from their eyes. Above all, I didn't receive any birthday wishes from others also. I was so upset that day that I wash my face with tears on that night. I think I'm around 13-14 years old. The day after that, I went up to my mum and ask her whether is she aware that yesterday is my birthday. Ofcause the answer is NO. My mum was like "OMG, Isit?! sorry my son, bla bla bla..". But actually I just want to 'inform' her that, yesterday is actually her son's birthday. I can feel my heart after i have voice it out. I went back to my room with smiling face after that, but when I closed my door and i lied down on my bed, my tears, drop. Happy Birthday Steve..

I stay in Sabah till 6 years old and after that, HELLO KUALA LUMPUR.
I hardly remember what i have gone through there, maybe cause I was too young??
But, there is one thing that I never can forget, it is also my birthday, it is my 5 years 'young''s birthday. I was so happy that my family is celebrating it for me(except my father is sleeping...) my mum cooked lots of food.. although have no presents, but the happiness in me is beyond.
And so, sibling all sing birthday song for me.... and then mum ask my go take the camera, I ran to my parent's room(my father is half awake) and I took the camera, right after i took it, i try to press and take 1 picture, just want to try whether it's with film(i was young so bit dumb). After pressing it there is a sound came out, is not like taking picture's sound, more like tape rewinding sound. My father suddenly get up, and take his belt and start whacking me like nobody business! He scold me, say why i press that button, it will delete all the pictures that have taken, and he continue whacking. Funny? You won't want know how hard does he whack me with the belt. My mum want to stop him, but as she do all the pulling and shouting and stuff my father whack even harder... then my father change the part of the belt, he use the METAL part to whack me, it so happen its hit in between of my eye, nearer to my left eye, and its bleed. He stops when he saw it, then he went back into the room. I cant stop crying, it was so hurt.. the mot hurts is in my heart. I mean, come on.. that's my birthday dad, I was just 5.. can you like teach me or at least warn me? or maybe you can do it tomorrow? That time I do not know that sound is actually film roll back's sound, it won't hurt or delete whatever pictures you have taken, and that's mean I did nothing wrong... But why? sigh. Happy Birthday Steve....

Even today, guess what is my dinner? You know mix rice? Me myself go 'tapao' and eat alone in my room...damn.... There no people in my house, only my mum and dad(=.=). *Sigh* But i thank those who send my birthday wishes, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Happy Birthday Steve...

If there really a wish given for my birthday, I would wish..I wish for a Happy Birthday.
*tears drops*

Happy Birthday Steve....

Sry la..

Haiz.... I'm suppose to 'date' with one of my friend(almost half a year didn't meet her. She one of my best fren.) yesterday, but i screwed up with my coll's assignment. I'm suppose to hand draw and draw it again in illustrator, need to do 3 pieces. I was doing the last piece, when I was 70% done, I thought of continueing it the next day, but then i closed it without saving it... i was like @^%#$^%#@@#^$&@&#^%&^@% all the way.. cause it takes me hours to do it.. so er.... yea... DA....MN.......


Well, here's the tattoo that I did, coloring bit....but watever la..